It Hurts!!!!

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up a whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life… You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ or ‘how very perceptive’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love. I hate love.

Sometimes we love with nothing more than hope. Sometimes we cry with everything except tears. In the end that’s all there is: love and its duty, sorrow and its truth. In the end that’s all we have – to hold on tight until the dawn.

Some feelings sink so deep into the heart that only loneliness can help you find them again. Some truths are so painful that only shame can help you live with them. Some things are so sad that only your soul can do the crying for them.

Dream Vs Reality of LIFE

The harsh realities are not those that we can respire but those that take our breath away. It’s hard to realize the truth but it sounds nice to spend time thinking about the things that can never happen our way. Many people end up lives dreaming about their aspirations rather than realizing the fact that they are not born to dream but to achieve and I am no exception. Someone once said “if you can’t achieve it dream as if you achieved it”. This is no true coz people start undermining the ground realities and lives in delusion for sheer pleasure. This is no different from a guy or gal living in ignorance coz secluding oneself from veracity is idiocy.

My day starts with a call to a guy and ends with the same and I intend to make myself feel better by living in delusions and thinking that things really happen the way I want to be but truth is I am not ready to accept the reality that I am not the one he really adores. Don’t want to find reasons and means but the promising solution is move on coz if you want something very badly, set it free, if it comes back to you it's yours forever, if it doesn't it was never yours to begin with. This is one kind of perspective that matters when u want to move on. The reality is something else which you will know when you delve in the bygones.
This was how I see it: Accept reality in the way it comes and move on. This is the life and can’t get better than this if you dream.

Possessiveness !!!

There is once a popular song in Hindi that sings that ‘Life Is A Song Of Love’.. which always made me pause and reflect. In our attempts to discover and reinvent life through the journey of love, guess many have been tugged by this emotion of possessiveness sometime or the other. I hear many times about this rolling out as a candid confession in conversations. Guess everyone might have heard of this perspective, but when I came across similar kind of situation, I couldn’t resist posting it. Coz, there are certain lessons and learnings in life, that demand conscious effort from our side to put them to practice. And for the worst part we tend to realise them only after things have been too far off track!!!

I once had a discussion with my friend regarding this and she had asked me to hold sand in my hand and asked me to tighten my fist.. And she said the same thing..That we should never try to hold a person.. The more we try to… the more he/she will just slip out of our hand… Its an old saying but true.. And infact very difficult to implement.. This was how I saw it: As long as you keep your hand gently open and allow it to remain there, it will always be there. However, if you attempt to close your fingers round it and try to posses it, it will spill through the first cracks it finds. This is the greatest mistake that people do when they meet love. They try to posses, own, and expect… and just like the water spilling out of your hand, love will retrieve from you. For love is meant to be free, you cannot change its nature.

If there are people you love, allow them to be free beings. Sounds such a simple perspective, but how difficult to internalize! I have seen relationships collapse due to a possessiveness overdrive and power struggle. Well, we can never reason out our actions in relationships, but awareness always helps in defining our perspective. Love like joy and cheer is meant to be shared and isn’t limited like a piece of cake. Still, we feel as if we own the person and haggle for our share, how strange!!!!!!